now suddenly feel like blogging....got something want to say but don't know how to say...don't know what to say...don't know when to say...and don't know can say not..juz feel so empty.....why is life so miserable....everything must have restriction...don't like it...like a bird in a cage....just felt so sad...just hope that someone would really understand how I feel right now...very hard on me...just feel like giving up on everything......why must life be so hard on me...fate I don't know you are my fren or foe...but please...don't let me suffer in this way...cause I gonna hate you if you do it......I don't know what's going on....everyone start to be different...they change...I DON'T like it....just hope that there will be a time machine, I just want to change history of my life....