Everytime I see you, I'm always making sure that I take a good look at you. Many years had just gone by and we went through ups and down together. From we were young, the first time we met I know that we are going to be together many years down the road and I also know that many years down the road one day you will leave me. I know that I have to learn to accept the fact that you will leave me earlier unless I'm dying soon. Its been 6 to 7 years since we met each other, we watch each other grow up and we change alot over these years. Over the years our bonding became stronger each day and everyday my love for you had grow even stronger. I know that your time left for me is limited, and one day I know that you are going to leave me silently without letting me know that you are leaving me. Every minute and second I spend with you is meaningful and its going to be important to me, cause I never know when you will be gone and I also don't know will I be able to see you before you are gone. I always tell you to wait for me but I know that you can't choose how long you can wait but I wish that the day you are gone wouldn't be so soon. Everyday I pray hard that when I'm back, you are always there waiting for me. I don't know wheather I can still live on without you, you just become part of my life and if you are gone, how am I going to carry on I also do not know. Now I could see from your face that you are telling me that you are not as healthy as you were when you were young, and the alot of things are showing me that your health is falling. I'm not asking for more but I do really hope that within these few years nothing is going to happen to you. I know that I'm your everything and you might not be my everything but I sincerely tell you that you are part of my everything. All our time we spend together is not going to be forgotten I promise you even though you are gone in the future. Last week I saw you and this week I saw you, you change alot. I can see from your face and from your behaviour that your health is no longer as good as before. No matter how hard I tried to regain it but nothing seems to work. My world with you are just fragile as it is, it could not survive without one's love and care. Everytime I look upon the sky during day or night, I'm missing you and thinking that are you watching the sky just like I'm watching at that very moment. Worrying that are you sleeping well and had you eaten your meal. When I call home everytime, I never failed to ask Mama about you. Sometime she will complain about you and sometime she will say that you are missing me, walking around the house waiting for me to be back. The only regret I made so far in my life was that in the past, I did not spend much time with you. Busy with work and neglect you alot, despite of all these, you are still so loyal to me.

Seeing you like this, nothing much I can do but to relieve your problem as much as I could. Since it couldn't be cured then I just tried as many ways to let you feel better as I could. Now what I can do is to make you happy and spend as much time as I could with you. Promise me that you will wait for me every weekend, I can't imagine how life would be when I reach home seeing you not around. I'm really afraid that one day when I woke up seeing you sleeping forever and not waking up, and if that really happen, I'm alone. I don't want to have the room all by myself, I want to share my everything with you, I'm worried for you everyday cause I know that you can't wait too long but please I hope that the time wouldn't come so soon. ~Love you always~

Kamon
kurotomesode Amulet from Heian Jingu
Amulet for Ginkaku Jin