Haiz....time passe very fast..things are starting to heat up...anything might happen and I must be ready for it...whether what is going happen...I must face it..coz I'm the only one left...no one else....either I face it or die....not much choice left for me...so many years le...and a sudden "request" came upon...can't deny or run away from it....I hope that all of you don't touch her if not don't blame me...so what even we share to same blood created from the same father and mother...so what you are less fortunate than I am...it doesn't make any sense that you will be granted on wat you request....u wan..u deal with me...for fuck i care whether i should fulfil your desire...if I fulfil you...who is going to fulfil mine....no wonder..ppl always say...siblings fight sometime can end up deadly...now i understand.....you guys are one bunch of heartless freak....I HATE YOU ALL....I donno why...until now...u all still understand...yes I do pity u all coz not as fortunate as I do...BUT is doesn't mean that i need to end up like u guys...and seriously..i am fuckin not afraid of death...ok...hear it dude...but I don wanna leave her alone in this world...after all she brought me up...from a kiddo....facing death is not a big deal after all...anyway I faced twice...another one more time doesn't make a different...my life isn't as good as what you guys thought of....what u all want me to do huh?? knee down and beg....pls lah...any one of you are older than me...can't you all think.....i'm also suffering...i myself also longing...longing much more than you guys long for....if takin my life means so much to you all...take it after she is gone..for all I care....I myself is tired of my life too...the one I love is someone's else lover...the one I care don't even give a damn hell out of me....the one I miss don't even bother to be bothered....U think you all suffered I don't suffered....PLS.....THINK....go and do some self-reflection...cutting my wrist to ease away the pain in my heart...u think I enjoy my life meh...how I also wish that my life can be good...you guys not by my side when I was freakin young...u think I not sure huh?? the loneliness in me and u guys undestand...father good for nothing...mother busy working...and I'm left alone....ALONE!!!!!......this ALONE....is enough...until now....still ALONE...at least the others are by your side....me?? alone fighting and try to survie hard here.....what is done is done....she already tried her best for you guys...what u want her to do....destroying your own blood related brother makes you feel good huh???anyway we should see how....but if u want a deal to be fair for you guys...deal it out with me...my body and soul is here...if you are capable den take it...I'm fine with it...

boi....thanks for the chat last night....happy for you that you are going to higher nitec...study hard....get good GPA and get into poly....well...seems like I'm going to NS earlier...well...still will miss ya you know....haiz....too much things happening now...but don worry....will nv forget you...so u better don forget me...if not I will skin alive....haha...well catch up with u soon...miss ya