life had been very complicated ever since you changed my life....always finding ways to make myself stronger and be more sensible as I can be.....always thought it would be easier for me but turn out to be more hard then I expected.....how many more months and years I need to wait to get hold of it......soon my life will be more complicated serving my national service for this country and my distance with you will be further....so many years I had tried ways hunting you down...but whenever I get so close to you....things came out of no where and drift as further apart.....this is my last hope and last time to get hold to you...hopefully that all my hardwork and effort will pay off....my life is destiny because of you...fate make my life more intresting also because you....just a little while more and it will be ok i always tell myself.....the crest on me represent you...the blood flow down from me also because of you....I don't know when I will be able to get to you......my hidden memories are still with Hastunoya....I don't know when I will be able to get it back and resolve it.....its been 15years since I last saw you....and suddenly you came back to lead me back to when I just to be with and my life was blossom there like the Zakura blossom at higashiyama.....this time I hope that its a good thing you lead me but show me the way....its though for me to be alone struggling with it....life is too much for me to find out....I was instruted to get it...after getting it...I don't know what to do with it...is this my mission or my destiny....someone just guide me...my life is hard....until now the location you had mention....I still can't find it's secret...nothing out of it...what the hell it had to link with my life...just so complicated....all u told me is that the crest I had on me is important....but how important its is...tell me.....the person you told me...why is he trying so hard to get hold of me...what is the thing I had that they are looking for....what is the thing they want so much....I got nothing to give....but left myself....I'm not a treasure or an item people are hunting for.....I hate it....my life is already in a mess....so stop messing around me....getting so much information is already a headache..because of them I need to get so much things...its hard on me.....If I were to know who the person is behind all this....without that stupid thing I also can't terminate him.....why can't the ways just shown clearly to me...make me like a fool.....the flower you wanted I already got but still there are too much things for me to find.....I'm tired yet I can't stop.....what is going on....I'm already busy with my life stop all these things....I really can't have much time....