Hi everybody, I'm back again. These few days so stress, so many test and assesment going on. Failed my HSP test again and again. Do until I also don't know what am I doing. Everytime on road, I'm always careless and nearly create accident. There is even one time I nearly knock one small boy down, luckily my instructor pull my hand brake in time. So stress!! Many lesson to cope with and training to go through, many things happening at home too. My life in a mess now, don't know where to start from also. Not much people can understand what I go through only those who went through with me and saw what I went through. Tell myself to bear with it as training will end soon so just suck it up. Friends went to the training together with me, encourage me alot and support me alot too. Even though I barely know them for 2 months but we went through alot of shit, and we click quite well. They are nice and understanding and always cheer me up when they can see from my face that the training was though that day. Quit smoking already but health wise still got problem, went to hospital today due to the heart problem again, cardio seems alright but still need to go for echo and threadmill to confrim everything is right. Got my another number to avoid this particular person, hopefully this person will disappear from my life cause I had enough of you these few years and its giving me too much problem. Knowing that doing this you might hate me for your bloodly rest of your life but its better than you hurting me for my rest of my life, and yeah' I know I'm bloody selfish by doing this but all thanks to you cause I learned it hard from you. IT'S ALL FROM YOU!!! I told you once before that don't make me turn nasty cause I never deny that when I turn nasty, I AM ONE F**KING BITCH you gonna remember for the rest of your life!! When I'm nice, you take me for granted and let me suffer, now I'm going to make you feel more than what you had given me and make you feel it damn bloody hard to the core. I really feel sick about you even when hearing your name. Thinking of all the memories we had is really insulting me, err!! IT'S SO SICK. well to all my friends, take care and bye bye.