Finally I said everything out but I don't know is it the right one, I hope this is the best one I had choose. Forgive me for not giving you a chance cause I think I gave too much already in the past.

Message for you:
Nothing happen to me, I think we should let each other cool down. I'm really very tired not because I don't treat you close to me or wat but I hope you put yourself in my shoe and maybe you will know how I feel. Even though we know each other for 8years but we only start to know each other 4years ago. We indeed went through alot but I still find that we can't get along and we no longer know each other much anymore as if we are stranger to each other. I don't know is it because I have changed or you have changed but we no longer able to click together anymore. We always quarrel and fight and I feel that I'm the one always giving in. I'm really very tired and to be true with you, I think you should know how I feel towards you so I think is better we don't be too close or maybe we shouldn't contact anymore for each other own good. These few months I think about all the things that had happen when with you and indeed we have happy memories but also sad ones too. I tried to recall when is the last time I meet you and given a happy memories about the meeting and I realise I can't recall but only able to recall about all the quarrel we have. I don't want any unhappy memories to continue anymore so I think it's for your own good also. During these 2 months I'm away from your life and you still lead your life normally so I think slowly you will get use to not having me around by your side anymore. I'm not trying to avoid you but anyway my samsung phone is not in singapore so my old line won't be using back so soon till its back and my new number is just a temp number. But i think it doesn't matter anymore, I don't want to make the same mistake anymore falling for someone I shouldn't have in the first place. Being close with you was the first mistake I shouldn't have made. I'm not blaming you but myself and people around me feel that I'm used by you which I don't know it's true not. Forgive me for not giving you any chance to explain cause I didn't see any changes in you everytime I hope you can put yourself in my shoe and feel what I feel. You might think that I'm selfish but I think this is the only choice I can do to make us lead a better life. Without me, you can have a better life. I don't know how to tell you neither do I know what to do to make you feel how I feel. Somethings you did without noticing that it's actually hurting me alot, but I never blame you cause I think you didn't know what you are doing. I'm so sianz when you ask to meet cause everytime we always quarrel about where to meet and always I have to give in and you will use 101 reason to defend youself so I think this carry on also no use so what's the point of making each other's life so miserable. I hope you truly understand how I feel and you might not forgive me for doing all these but how am I going to live happily when all these are happening. I'm not saying that you are giving problems to my life but this is one of the problem I face that will endanger me. It hurts me badly till I don't know when I will go insane. I'm still a human, I need a break and I can't always hold my emotion back. I still need some space to breath, everytime I cry because of you and end up I tell myself what's the point when you can't even be bother about it and able to pretend like nothing had happen. You always said that I had change not as obedient as before please I'm not your dog. Even dog need some space for them to release their temper and unhappiness. I really feel that we are not to communicate with each other anymore and I think you should realise that . We quarrel over so many things including small little things and I give in until I'm too tired that I feel so numb to you sometime. I don't know how you feel after reading this message but its not easy for me to say all these out and I think really this is the best decision that benefit both of us. I truly wanna thank you for taking care of me all these years but I think we are not meant to be. Take care

These is all I had left for you, so please don't bother to contact me anymore and I think you will never change.