I really need help, I felt so helpless. Life wasn't as I thought it will be after ORD.
Many things had happened recently, friend's dad fall sick. Wonder my friends able to cope with it. Can't help her much as I'm also in difficult position in life. Done some mistake in life recently too. Had many chapters in life waiting for me to unfold. Miss my days in army when I had so much fun with Eugene (Mentor) and Javier (lessie). Life seems to be real too unpredictable. Family problem arising, endless "suprise" out there to make it more desprating in life. Realise that I had a problem recently and can't tell anyone as its a bit not easy to just say from mouth and its a bit personal. Too many things had happened, I want to break out from this hell.