First time I'm really kind of disappointed in updating a entry about friends. Many things in life just change without you noticing includings friends. Some people just like to put up show infront of you and doing/talking about stuff behind you and I'm not talking about back stabbing but some disappointment they actually do in life. I always believe that there are always some people out there who are real nice and sincere friends but does this belief really exist. I think that I'm a person who don't harm friends and you don't lose out in knowing me as a friend or rather to say that anyone so far lose something in knowing me? Please come forward and let me know. Maybe I might be a bit naggy or like to poke my nose into your life but I'm sincerely doing for your own good and not making you feel difficult you see. Even though our friendship might not be long like 10years but this 4/5years, we seen each other grow up together. Our friendship wasn't like before, we are becoming like strangers and all we know about one another is the past. I find it a bit pathetic and why does this happen even though we do meet up often. Is it because you did not really open up your heart as a friend or I'm no longer your friend anymore? I felt that you really change but you think that I'm becoming more and more annoying. I feels that you are like drowning in the sea and there I throw the float to save you but I insist on struggling and not accepting my help. I really don't want to see your life just end up like that. I do hope to see you upon being success and fulfiling your goals in life. I can only do and talk so much and the rest is really up to you to choose. I never ever wanna harm you but just wanna see you getting better in life. You deny your responsibility and choose to run away from reality. I do really miss the old you and now I start to wonder that is it I change or you had changed. This inncident shows that our friendship no longer can last and coming to an end or it never really exist before? I really don't know how to face you in future. I also can't advice or talk to much, what I can do is limited and its beyond my control. Just like a river no matter how hard it try to give life to other life but one day eventually it will dry up. I felt so lost in this friendship.