why are you back..
Sunday, May 30, 2010
After so long, why did you come back? I really hate you! Even though I felt attached to you but it was in the past. After all these years, I started to hate you. All the things you did to me whether its purposely, or unintentionally but it hurts. The black beads bond us together and since it broke once, everything changed. Even though it was being put back together but its no longer the same anymore. You took almost my everything and I trusted you so much in the past. I thought that I could believe in you but you make me realised that my believe in you was wrong. I shouldn't have helped you in the first place, I shouldn't have believe you in the first place. You lied to me again and again and I always thought that all are white lies till I finally know that you are not true at all in the first place. You try to be nice and trying to change in front of me but actually you are plotting and trying to reach your ultimate goal. You easily broke the promise and vows you had made, you took my precious memories away and slowing devouring me away. I still don't understand what is your ultimate goal you want from me. All I know is that I have to leave you because one day I will be gone even without knowing how I gone from this place. I won't let you come closer to me anymore not even one step nearer. I need to safe guard myself from you. Your heart is so dark that I can't even see any light within it. You blinded me once with your darkness and I won't gave you any chance to let such things happen again.