Early morning when Xiang Rong asked me to define what is love, and what kind of love I'm searching for. First time I asked myself that all these years what kind of ending I want in a relationship. I realise that I need someone who can be out there with me, understand yet able to get my trust totally. I realise that I do not trust not only the other party but myself too. I felt so insecure in falling in love, not sure about the choice I made. Not sure that the ending will be a painful fall again or perhaps a happy moment that will change my point of view in love. I used believe that love can really turn out like those sweet moments shown on dramas or tales, but never did I know after all these falls in love, its really hard for me to believe it again. Maybe I'm selfish for not giving others a chance, but who will understand the pain I went through. I really don't want to get hurt and felt those terrible pain again. I need to clear all thoughts and once again look into what is going on and answer myself that is this what I really want.