Its been quite awhile since we last chatted and right now I'm asking myself why I couldn't move on. Obviously I think you won't even thought about me and know how I feel. My friend told me its a one way traffic and told me to open up the lane for you so there can be a two way traffic. In my mind I'm asking myself, "are you crazy?" what if it ended up in a dead end. Guess I always tell people around me, "you never try, you never know" but right now I don't wanna try so how will I know. I know this sounds contradicting but its not easy. I myself don't even know are you of the same kind or you are just ordinary one. Struggling while hanging in the air is the worse treatment you ever wanna get. I tried letting you go but seems like my mouth are saying but my hands are holding tight to the kite. Its not like I'm desperate for love or anything but maybe my heart aren't cold and hard enough. I don't blame you for misleading but blame myself for having a lighted ear and easily got carried away. Days passed and I'm stagnant waiting for someone to answer those doubts for me. Why did I turn out to be like that, like a piece of junk waiting to be recycled. I'm silly, naive and dumb after all these mistake but yet I let it happen again and again. Can someone just be heartless enough to bang me on the wall so I will lost my memories and not becoming a useless piece of shit waiting to be flush down the toilet bowl. I want to tell someone how I feel but to can I say to. God if you are hearing my prayers and I do hope you can guide me and tell me what to do.