It has been so long since I last blogged. I seldom comes in so often as I do before, probably whenever I hardly can breathe. Struggling with many things in life, and everything seems so tough nowadays. Work is not going smoothly nowadays, and I facing too many issue that's pushing me off my limit. I can hardly recognize myself anymore. Its tough to face all these but still I can't run away from it.
I don't know if I'm still okie without you, seems like very soon you will enter into a new life with someone else or probably you had already enter into that new life but I'm unaware about it. I'm trying to move on as well. I tried many ways to keep myself calm and steady but when some news broke out I guess its hard to accept at times.
Please remind me who I really am. Hiding all those memories behind the smile. I never mention about you in front of anyone neither did I note down things about you because I know how serious things might ended up badly. I'm putting up a strong act when there's any concern or issue about you. I tried to make everyone believe that I can go on in life without, but whenever I looked into the mirror, I will always smile back to myself and ask myself "I'm waiting for the day when I no longer able to handle all those emotion and watch myself shatter into pieces".
Don't run away and tell me you will stay and promise you will stay.
Everyone's got their dark side and no one able picture as a perfect. I thinking how life will be without you and I've got no much time left as I need to seek for alternative before I shatter into pieces.
-the end-