Don't know why when I saw you stating seeing someone special, I felt that pinch of pain. Sometimes I wonder, what's wrong with my life and why am I making the same mistake over and over again. Falling in love is nothing wrong at all but falling for the wrong person is something you wouldn't even wanna do but end up I always end up doing the same mistake. I'm tired and wounded badly, I don't know why I'm always looking for more and more problem for myself. I asked myself this question so many time over the years, when will I ever learn but again same mistake I made, same problem I brought upon myself. Is there anything wrong? Am I too clinging? Am I expecting too much? Sometime I realise when you try to find the problem and it cannot be found, I guess it lies within me. After tonight, I've made up my mind not to expect anything and decided I'm tired about all these. Not going to wait for love and look for love, this lesson I decided to give up and I think I had enough pain from all these nonsense. Every time I always end up looking like a fool and end up being in the loosing end. I'm also a human being too, I too have feelings and emotion. If this what you want me to go through in life, let me know cause I rather die. Sometime I think living in this world is worse than dying cause my life is like a living hell. Everyone thinks that I'm happy from the way they judge me as it surface on the outside but who really knows what's the feeling inside me. From the start of this year I think love is favoring me at all. Everyone I met were nice and in the end is either they went missing or treat it like a game. I no longer believe in love anymore, people are not genuine as before. There's no light at the end of the tunnel and walking for so long really wore me out. Sometimes I just wanna take a break and forget about everything. If there's a wish for me to make it come true now. I wish to forget everyone, I'm too tired and I don't even know how to continue in this journey in life. Bring me back to the old days when everything was simple and at least I still can smile and laugh like before. I no longer know myself anymore, everything is a lie. Tell me what's true in my life?