Over the years, I've always remind myself to choose the path that leaves me with no regrets, somehow or rather when walking this difficult path in life I always leave some regrets here and there. Everything seems so unclear and misleading at times. Someone told me my life is like a game however its a game not created by myself and a game with rules that I do not even knew about it. It has been years since I met someone like you. Now that someone I met is like another you. This person treats me like how you treated me 9years ago. Initially I told myself probably it's just another incident that will leads to nowhere and soon it will go away but as time goes by, again I make the same mistake. I let my feelings stray again and I knew that if this emotion I'm not able to handle it I will be at the losing end. I tried many ways to divert my attention and focus on other issue but still deep down I knew I can't. I told myself I never allow myself to like the wrong person again. I told myself that no matter what happens in the end I would want to handle this alone and not to get anyone involve in this nonsense anymore. Long ago I told myself not to get any feelings involve and I would just want to move on without even letting anyone know what is going on. Somethings are better to left unspoken and its better to leave it this way. 9years ago I was accepted but left hanging and ultimately being abandoned. I wouldn't want to go through this anyhow. I'm trying my best and refrain myself for loving anyone again. Everything I do reminds me of you, the motivation that keeps me going on till now its all about this person. I knew that no matter what happen I can never push a cart side way and this person have the same ability like you. This person able to make me go through each day like how you able to make me go through each day. However I know its a one sided traffic and this will leads to nowhere so I decided not to repeat the same mistake again. I will seal this feeling away and soon everyone will forget about what had happen and everything will be back to normal. I still miss....